Thank you for your reply. I gather that you meant well, even though it does ring a tad hollow or trite in places (I've heard so much of what you've said before, sometimes down to the exact phrasing, and absolutely none of what I've heard before meshes with my experiences). I absolutely do not hold any love for my son; I fear and hate this dumb, ugly beast I am responsible for, and nothing else.

People can and do pass judgment, especially people I call on for support.

I cannot have my son taken anywhere now; it is not enough of a threat and I am still trying to get it in the right supported living centers. The risk of my plans being disrupted by police custody is too great for now.

I have no plans to harm it, and right now it is not an immediate threat to me. I can still fend it off when it attacks. I am still vigilant enough that it cannot surprise me and cut off avenues of escape. But one day, and I have absolutely no way of knowing when or how, I won't be able to, and it will force that confrontation if things do not change.

Like I said and have said repeatedly, I am working to ensure that confrontation does not happen, and that this creature is finally put in an adequately safe, secure, and humane cage far away from me, where I can be certain I will never have to look at its hateful and evil fucking face again.

Anyway, I've lost whatever point I had, so thank you for the intent behind your words. I would just as soon not hear them again, though, if it's all the same. I've heard so much of them before, for other people, and it does not match with my reality at all, which only alienates and frustrates me further. Thank you, and have a good evening.