There will always be someone out there who's willing to be there for you.

Was your experience with uni as bad as your experience with grad school? Do you enjoy what you ended up studying?

What if you give up now and an opportunity would have come up a day later that can change your entire life? Sounds outlandish and obviously it won't take a single day to fix everything and get your life back on track, but this happened for me. One of the shittiest periods of my life was very recent. I had quit my job due to stress and anxiety, my dog also was getting sicker and sicker by the day, and things had been dwindling between me and my now-ex.

I decided to end my life and I tried to go through with it unsuccessfully. I was scared of not being able to follow one of my short term plans of saving money to be able to feel kind of safe when pursuing other things or trying to move. But the very next day, an opportunity literally came the fuck out of nowhere. One of my parents retired while I'm still in high school, so I was able to apply for a program that allowed me to get benefits from their retirement as well. I am now able to save money just like before. In fact, way BETTER than before. I get literally 5x what I was getting when I was working. I'm able to fulfill this goal that's very important to me while working on my depression and anxiety.

So please never give up. I'd be lying if I said this opportunity coming up for me fixed my problems entirely. I still experience a lot of depression and suicidal thoughts. But you never entirely know what will come your way to at least alleviate the pressure of your situation. I believe in you to get through this.