I am honestly asking....do you know of any place where i would be able to confirm my denial that my being fat would be bad for me?
No. Most of these "studies" cited, like this one and this one70062-7/abstract). Fail to look at the overall picture. What is that?
Obese folks may live longer because they tend to forever be in hospitals. That said, catching risks will be higher for those always going to the doctor than those who don't. Example: I'm in my 60s and the last time I was in a hospital was over 9 years ago for a bee sting. I could have cancer, who knows, and they wouldn't know it until it was too late
They cite mortality rates from those in the 50s-70s. Let's be honest. Tech and medical advancements are eons ahead then they were in those days. Folks dropped dead from things which can be cured or treated at length now. My grandfather died of colon cancer, my father did not. They simply treated it with "beads." Unheard of when I was a child.
They ignore quality of life. You get the beetus, you end up going to the hospital a couple times a month. You take a plethra of drugs, injections, etc and maybe have a couple limbs amputated. You can't hike, you can't camp and a canoe trip is out of the question because portage would be impossible because of a knee and hip replacement. Eventually you go blind and end up in a nursing home at 58. You may live longer then your thin counter parts (see number 1) but...dude.