Really struggling with letting go of an unmanageable situation.

I'm not saying how badly she treats me, I won't always be there. I think if I found out there was romantic intention from her before the addiction really took hold, then yeah, thats definitely a boundary breaker.

We haven't talked about a single thing around what happened with the relapse as she's still in recovery and isn't ready to talk about it. At this point I don't know what happened other then she was given a supply of drugs, and by the time she had developed a chemical dependency, he had her come there. I don't know if anything sexual happened at all then or after. But she did come home with enough meth that it would develop a deep dependency. I believe there could have been sex involved in the 5 night binge as there was also alcohol involved, which is what her last large addiction was, and she said she blacked in and out, and I haven't exactly heard good things about this ex of hers from mutual 'friends' on FB.

And I do have a problem with her blaming me as well. I'm actually really ticked off that my relationship with her parents has also been ruined over this, because they don't trust me when I explain how bad this can get - because they've never really seen it. Shes broken that trust. But I also know the mind of an addict, especially crystal meth, is one that will do anything to get that next fix. And that's scary. Because she did sabotage the relationship with the use.

And that's true. She did seem to actually be recovering the first few days. I believe he's since sent her another package and she's started to use behind her parents back again. She's told me she's relapsing again.

Its just really difficult because... how this is affecting her.. it just isn't my partner. Shes not this irresponsible when she's sober. Even when she drank very heavily she was less aggressive and angry as this. Its just weird. She's not the person I fell in love with while she's using meth. Which is kind of obvious. But if she sobers up and realizes that's a bad fucking influence, and is ready to apologize, I could probably work out a lot of it. Yes she actively took part in the use. But I don't think she goes to see him if she's not using for weeks at that time and doesn't have the dependency. I also think we're both continuing to go back to step one because we're not around each other, because it's always been kinda a two way emotional support system..

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