There are a lot of women who are "intellectually jumpy" and they also tell jokes that are more sophisticated. It's not an uncommon attribute for many women to have. It also doesn't necessarily make you better than a woman who does not understand the more intellectual subjects.

People in the thread are attaching to that line because it sounds like you believe you are smarter and better than other women when you explain yourself that way. You aren't. You might be absolutely wonderful, I don't know because I haven't met you. But, even if you are, there are thousands of absolutely wonderful people in the world. There are thousands of people who can tell a joke that is "intellectually up there". And that all nice, but it doesn't make you better than anyone else.

I don't really understand where you're coming from because at one point you seem to be very egotistical about your intellectual prowess as you simultaneously insult your dating life and pick apart your physical appearance. I think a lot of your issues could be attributed to you not really understanding yourself as a full and complete individual. You're trying to hard to create a person without acknowledging who you might actually be.

I don't want to harp on the obvious, but maybe take a break from dealing with guys for a while and just focus on understanding yourself a little better. It sounds like you have some good hobbies and attributes, even if you have a hard time expressing yourself or tend to explain things in a way that is either diminishing others or yourself.

Also, I know for myself, any time I've ever really sought out relationships, the shit just seems to file through. Relaxing and just letting things come as they will is often a better approach.