My LO tends to deprioritize me in her life whenever she finds a new friend. I may be exaggerating here but I think she becomes apathetic towards me. We live in different countries and on a good day, i can totally understand why she does this, but it's the bad days when this shift in her behavior really triggers me. Something stupid will then happen with this new friend and she'll come back as if the last 5 weeks didn't happen.

I've come so close to giving up on her on multiple occasions but I've never gone through with it. I tell myself that she needs me more than I need her but that's probably just something I say to make myself feel better, and maybe even to keep the comforting toxicity going. Another thing I started doing to give me some semblance of control is deleting her texts. It's short-lived but it's enough for me to gather some strength before the next heartbreak.