Tantrum Tuesday - The Day to Rant!

I'm actually in a great mood this morning, but something has been bugging me for a while.

My diet has been going well. The Bulge (my waistline) has been getting a lot smaller, my tights are loose, my shirts are loose in the upper sleeves, my face looks better. Not close to where I want to be, but it's still going well for only being about 2 months from the start (6 weeks from going low sugar/low GI).

I'm getting married in September. I've got 3.5 months to go. I assume I will be down to a reasonable weight by then, and I am going to continue eating low GI after I'm married. This is a health choice, not a diet.

The last couple of times I dieted, it didn't work. I counted calories, tracked my weight, and weighed my food. I allowed the daily spoon of jam in my porridge and the occasional slice of cake with sweetened tea. And I lost three pounds in three months and I didn't feel any better. I don't know if it's because I'm getting older (just turned 39) or what, but it does not seem to be working for me anymore. I actually posted about this before, "Why am I not losing weight on this 1200 calorie diet?" and got a lot of feedback about how I'm not doing it right (more on that below...).

Sugar has always been bad for me. I remember in college I would have a bit of cake at lunch (fudge or chocolate biscuits) and then an hour later I couldn't even focus on my schoolwork, literally could not physically focus my eyes. If I ate a bar of fudge I could almost guarantee that I would feel dizzy and breathless half an hour later. There's this feeling that I get when I eat too much sugar - kind of a fuzzy head with short breath and slight sickness - which is highly unpleasant.

So, for these reasons (and a lot of other reasons - I've been reading up on sugar lately), I'm trying the low sugar/GI diet. Not bothering with calories. Not bothering with weighing. Eating until I'm not hungry.

And it's wonderful. I had a bowl of porridge this morning with whole milk, which feels like a treat. For lunch I'm going to have a carrot and a small pot of full fat hummus, a pot of greek yogurt (full fat!) and a banana. For a snack I'm going to have an apple and some almonds. For dinner tonight I'm having steamed broccoli, lemon and dill baked salmon, and some red rice.

And you know what? I'm losing weight. I've already had people comment. I've no idea how much I've lost. I may weigh myself after my honeymoon. But I may not.

If I was to hazard an extremely unscientific guess, I reckon I have developed insulin resistance, which is likely given that my grandfather and brother and uncle have type 2 diabetes. I also have a hormonal condition that makes it extremely easy to pack on weight, which seems to be getting worse all the time.

BUT EVERY TIME I TELL PEOPLE THIS THEY THINK I NEED TO CHANGE EVERYTHING I AM DOING.

Yes, fucking hell, I did the low calorie thing, when I was 22. It worked! It works for people! It doesn't work for me anymore! And it's not because I'm stupid or deluding myself! (/r/loseit, you like to pat yourselves on the back for being so "nice" but it's a ridiculous sham. You're as judgmental as everyone else on reddit!) I'm a fucking highly educated professional in a great career with lots of responsibility and fucking smarts! You would respect and listen to me in a professional capacity and you think I don't know how to weigh my own breakfast?!

So no more sugar for me, and no more of that numbers game of weighing and obsessing either. I'm eating healthier and if that comes with concomitant weight loss, that's great! And you can all piss off!

/r/loseit Thread