Don't know man. I like reading about technical stuff like programming, mathematics, electronics, refrigeration and air conditioning, and also history of wars, religion etc. So I'm not much of an outdoor guy as you can tell. That's why I've always had limited interaction with women, even when I went to college. Plus I come from a conservative family so interaction with the opposite sex was not very much encouraged. So that didn't help me either.

As far as I can remember, I'd always been miserable about not being able to talk to women ever since I hit puberty. I had crushes in highschool, then college, then work. Never once was able to tell my feelings. All of that frustration kept me making more and more depressed until I finally gave up on the hope of ever being with a woman. And once that happens, you stop seeing the point in anything. What's the point of even trying to improve your life if you know you're never gonna get anyone to share it? It has gotten to the point now where I've completely stopped caring about my interests and hobbies cuz they seem pointless. They don't alleviate my loneliness in anyway.

Sorry for being this sad mope but I really don't know what else to say anymore.