Glad someone pointed out the wrongful actions of the cops. Hiding and staging a whole scenario to trick him into saying again that he wants to kill himself? He probably said those things stemming from other situations that festered over time into feelings that he couldn’t understand completely.

I know when I was gang raped a decade ago, I acted out in very odd ways because I didn’t understand that I needed help (I grew up in an abusive home so the concept that I could get help didn’t make sense to me) and I didn’t talk to him about it because in some twisted way I thought it was my fault or it didn’t happen; just like my childhood abuse was ignored and denied and not valid to the people who needed to protect me.

Anyway my husband said he couldn’t take it anymore and wanted to leave, so I said I would just kill myself then. It was stupid, but I was not attempting to manipulate him. I was feeling angry and terrified that I would lose protection and be left to fend for myself and raped again. I was just afraid of the world and the only person I trusted was him. That’s how I felt. It was like a lizard brain survival instinct thing. If he wasn’t there to protect me then someone would come and hurt me again so I may as well not live. Eventually we moved and I got into some very busy activities to distract myself an over time Ive been able to open up to him about my feelings in the past. Overall our marriage has turned out well, because I was given a chance to work on myself.

This whole situation sounds honestly beyond fucked up and I’m not quite satisfied with OPs actions. She could have just left, and maybe he wouldn’t have killed himself. The cops stormed in and it seemed like a defense mechanism for him tbh. Who tf stages a whole plot to trap their boyfriend like this ???