Why not I just went through some things.

First one was my last 3 weeks in New Zealand. Finished my holiday work visa and decided to go traveling. I really wanted this trip to be about my self. So I did my best to say away form people as possible. Fist I went to mount cook did amazing hikes bye my self.

Then I ended up in Wanaka for about were I ended getting drunk in my room and asking 2 French girl and one Belgian girl if they wanted to go hiking Roys peak with me. I really just wanted someone to share the cab far with to get here I had no idea it was going to become something more.

We ended up starting the hike up me and one of the French girl were clearly quicker then the other two. So we were together most the way up. Her English was the best. But we tried our best commutating with each other. Not to much to say she ended up getting ahead.

Anyway when we all reached the top. We got to see the amazing sunrise. Me and Caro's feet were both freezing. We both had bad both so we told the other two we would run down. Caro being much faster then me beat me half way down. When I finally catch up I find her changing her socks and trying to keep her feet warm. I end up blowing and rubbing on her feet as she crying and finally when the other girls make it down they help we get her feet warm and we both then keep running down the mountain. I would go into more detail here, To funny and to much to tell.

we make it down catch a ride back to town from two kiwi guys go to our hostel and shower and change and finally the other girls get back.

I remember the fist time I tho I like her she had just gotten back form the shower. and I have to say she looked beautiful. Anyway everyone took a nap and we all made a plan to get food later. we ended up some healthy food in town. I don't know what it was but as we were all eating and talking something seemed to spark about her. Just the way she moved talked acted. I felt completely intrigued

We ended all agreeing to meet up in Queenstown I took off and met them at the DOC. center the next day. We all decided to do. the Routeburn track and Kepler track together well the start of the hikes. Since everything has been coved with snow.

So we spent the night in queens town together and Left for the hike the next day. Once more me and Caro in the lead. and this time we actually started talking talking. and I think this is were we started to see in each other that there was that "spark" We talked about everything and anything. we spent the whole time walking and talking on the trail and finally when we made it to the hut. I told her how I was feeling about her. She laughed, said I was "crazy" and that she has a boyfriend of 12 years and they have a house together in France. And sadly she dose they would Skype almost everyday. I know this is the part were most of you might think I'm a pic of shit for keep trying after this but, honestly it was not like trying. it was like we just being with a best friend. Anyway after I told her this she said she was happy I was honest and good because most people aren't about these things.

I don't want make this to long. the next 4-5 days spent together a 9 to be exact. was like being with my best friend and some who I felt was like me. Me and her spent 99% of our time together when we weren't with the girl. They even commanted a lot how we were always together. Our last night together before my flight after a going out on the town in Queens town. she ended up in my bed. for the first few min we held her other tight not talking noting just listening to each others breath. Then I began to kiss her and she kissed me. and stoped and told me she could not. When I tried to do a bit more.

Goodbyes were sad the next day. I really did not know how to feel until I got on the plane. I cried like a lil kid. I felt like I was leaving something to good. I cold not have stayed tho since my visa was up and I had to leave the country.

Last time me in her talked was on my way to Berlin last week before I got on the plane. She told me it was not a good idea for us to keep talking, since she has a bf and all and the way were are together would not work. I know when she gets back to France I can chat with her on WhatsApp. I have her on message but I can't talk since her bf can see her tablet at home and when she calls me. I don't think that will be the last time I talk to her and I hope its it. Meeting someone like her. Never met some one who i just connected with like that.

was an amazing experience wont ever forget those beautiful memories

The next is someone Who I met at the start of my Holiday work visa in New Zealand. Really beautiful German girl. Amazingly also named Caro. We met in Wellington and took the boat to Picton together. I don't know what about her struck me about her but something did. I was suppose to start work start work in Blenheim but she asked if I wanted to join her in Nelson for the next 3 days and I did.

Those 3 days it felt as tho we were a couple. But like an idiot. All I kept thinking to my she leaving in 2 weeks to go back to Germany. and you are her for a year. At first I remember when I meet her in Wellington just wanted to sleep with her but after our boat ride I don't know what the hell happed. Can people really fall for someone that quick ??

I kept my feeling to my self hoping to get attached to her and just injoy those 3 days which I did. but in the end when she left I regretted everything. Not telling her how I felt not making a move all of it. We talked on whats app for like a month after hand and I finally told her how I felt of over text. She said she was surprised. and had no Idea I had felt like that. And she said we still friends.

cut to couple months later when aka a week ago when I was in Germany - Berlin I had a week there Before my flight to Aussie. it was the cheapest country to get to Aussie. And yes I admit a excuse to go see her. She lived not to far outside Berlin so I when off to see her. for one day. She we end up spending The whole day together talking chatting she shows me the whole town and everything. we have dinner food beer. by the end of the night. were back at hers watching Netflix. I end up telling her I still have feelings for her. She says she this we just did not click. I tell her that was my fault I the start for not being honest. after we talk we brush our teeth and she invites me to sleep in bed with her things turn sexual. and we end up holding each other the rest of the night.

The next more I leave to catch my train. and kiss her good bye. After my holiday in Aussie we plan to travel somewhere together She thinks we need to get to know each other a bit more :/ + long distant is tough. guess 4 days is not enough but our last time together was good so will see where that goes

thats really it and this all happed in the past 2 months lol