If it worked, it wouldn't be persistence. It's like when you're looking for something; it's always the last place you look. Mostly because once you find it, you stop looking. Persistence only works because it means failing and failing and failing until you have built up such a mountain of failures that success is not such a high climb anymore.

The terrible and wonderful thing about life is that you don't have to keep trying if you don't want to. I'm not the boss of you, you know? To me, life is at worst a waste of time and at best a joke. I'm still here because I have been able to find it pretty hilarious at times.

I mean, if all you want is for your needs to be met, you just have to do some crimes. If you want to actively participate, though, things get a little harder. I bus for two hours to get to my part time job, and I walk 8km back through a shitty neighbourhood because the buses don't run by the time I'm finished. I could just kill somebody and dance in my own shit and boom, three hots and a cot.

Life is hard. But shit, don't think that you have nothing else to do. A boy scout once built a nuclear reactor out of smoke alarms. We get this idea that life is an adventure game, that we have to complete the education quest line, the career quest line, the family quest line, and then we'll reach the "happiness" level.

But really, it's more like a sandbox. The only point of the game is to experiment with it, to figure out the rules, to make something that looks cool before the timer runs out. It doesn't even have to be something good. People do incredible things with their lives, good and bad. Or they don't. Doesn't matter either way in a cosmic sense, but you can be damn sure it matters to them as individuals.

Life is just tricking yourself into giving a shit long enough to forget about how futile the whole thing is, and then suddenly you're dead and you don't have to worry about it anymore.

What kind of jobs are you applying for?