"congratulations, you've completed your quest in defeating the calamity" text started flowing in front of me
Looking back, i can see people who i've come to create friendship and deep bonds with, even those who only came with me to help themselves broke into screaming at my actions, calling me an idiot, telling me i shouldn't do this and more, they truly care about me
"i believe i made it clear, i will be leaving, i don't know when but it will happen and no one can stop it" they all became silent and listened to every word i spoke, i don't know if it's about respect or feeling powerless to help me that they feel a duty to hear my last words
"i love-" i raised a palm to stop the sentence from finishing so i can talk "i know, i am not that dense" it caught them all by surprise, they thought i was a happy-go-lucky with a sense of heroism and had the density of a rock "i pretended not to notice because i would have to leave, i also wanted to keep a friendship and value all of you equally"
calculating quest...
main quest failure: 83%
"i have failed to protect what was dear to me once, i do not deserve your sympathies, i was truly a vile human being and grew to hate myself more and more with each passing day" text was going across in front of me, telling me of all my ten year progress and the missions i was given and how i fucked them up, i could've prevented a majority of the problems had i taken this seriously or wasn't such an idiot
"why do you have to go? you've sacrificed so much against immovable despair, we have lost everything we hold dear and yet it was you who pushed us forward, we can't continue without you" one of them couldn't stay still about this, it was too frustrating to take the crap i am giving
"don't talk like this, you're all working together, it wasn't a one man's job, we all collectively beat it and made it to the end, you're all my dear friends, the ones whom i selfishly leave to do the clean-up after me when i'm gone, you better live up to my heavy expectations" i was starting to speak with authority, there's a barrier separating the two dimensions and the cracks were repairing faster and faster, they listened to the end of my rant
"you better smile for the bright future we all brought together, or else i won't disappear in peace you walking babies, just stop crying already, i feel like crying that i can't kick the bucket without getting earblasted by the ear-bleeding sound of your sobbing spree" it completely repaired and i didn't get to see their reaction, none of them knew but i could've closed it instantly at any time, it caught them off guard when i disappeared suddenly but i had to cut it there, any more and my heart would grow weary and uncertain behind this inevitable fate that i braced myself so many years for
"total point ranking: F"
"bonus point ranking: SSS"
"clear rate of despair: 97%"
It finished there, after a long exhausting list and numbers that i couldn't care less about passed, i can finally return
"as agreed, you'll return me back home, correct?" paying any attention to the names and lists would just get me to think about the passed, i don't need to think about it, just cut to the chase
"correct, ten years have passed after all" i blanked at this text, it told me i can go back home if i finished the missions
"so i'll return right after that argument with my lover, yeah?" i didn't want to think of anything else, i mean the ten years meant the time i spent in that place, right?
"you'll return there, but ten years have passed" the text showed the opposite, my heart was about to burst from my chest, i felt my stomach turn and a headache flared, fear, uncertainty and more, i was being overwhelmed with doubt about all i've prepared for, the future i fought so desperately for, telling my family how much i love them and spend more time with them- this is not fair
"thank you for your cooperation, be safe on your journey and we hope you have a happy life" if this thing had a body, i would be choking it right now
Everything flashed to white and when i blinked, i was standing on the streets, my clothes from that fateful day were there, i stared at my hands, these frail arms that had no strength, a body that i was uncomfortable in and felt so foreign to me
"move out of the way!" someone bumped into me and i fell down to the ground, i was weak, i looked up at the person who bumped into me, he was carrying a heavy wooden box and didn't pay attention to me, i stood up and started exploring my strange surroundings
I recognize this place, these streets, but they look so strange at the same time, i have long forgotten many brands that i used to obsess over, restaurants i used to frequent, and names of many things that i should know
My steps were unsteady, it was winter, maybe around winter? it's funny because it was at that time that it happened and we don't have snow here but it's cold so i'm betting it is
No one payed attention to me while i looked like a weirdo with how i walk with a body i'm not used to and how i kept looking at everything around me
I saw a police officer and tried attracting his attention, i can't just go around aimlessly, ten years have passed, what would happen when a person that was missing for so long reappears? i needed to reconnect with my family and have another start in life by contacting friends or anyone who i used to know, it was wishful thinking but i am desperate, i feel so powerless, useless and incompetent with fear dwelling in my heart at how cold and unwelcoming this place is... the home i was trying to get back to for so long
"what is it?" the police officer walked up to me after he saw how i was walking strangely and trying to get his attention
"i need to go to a police station... my name is-" i tried explaining that i had to go there now and he didn't know that i was a missing person, he was on the younger side, a new person in the job with only three year experience and recently graduated from highschool, we exchanged smalltalk and i almost broke into tears, this seemingly pointless talk filled me with warmth and hope, i can still function in society and talk to people, being alone doesn't feel right, after the bonds i built back there, i can't just live and fend on my own..."
continuing this later, hope you enjoy it for what it is