i can tell you the exact day.

I was going climbing with a group of 20-30 friends and acquaintances in college who were basically all the people i knew. I asked a girl to come because I liked her and she seemed to like me. It was the first time i ever asked someone out.

It turns out she was the ex of one of the other people going. He convinced someone else to tell her that we cancelled the climbing trip. He did so in front of the rest of the group. I show up after this happened and heard what happened as we were about to leave.

She texts me asking if we are still going as I start driving. I don't want to text while driving and by now everyone is laughing about telling her not to come, so i never text her and she never shows up.

next day she comes into the room where we all hang out and ask us what we did the night before. just dead silence. obviously she knows we still went and that i didn't tell her. i avoid her, and annoyed with everyone else, avoid them as well. They all know i asked her and see how horrifically i failed, and everyone loses respect for me.

So she does not like me, basically all my college friends lose respect for me, i never bring this situation up ever again. I feel worthless, concentrate more on grades and other things, and start slipping into depression.

I needed one person to talk to. Needed something, anything at all. Got nothing and slowly slipped into depression over the next 6 months.