no dude, I GAVE MYSELF a better life. You are responsible for what happens in your life. You are a grown adult. Right now, you are being a passive bystander and just letting bad shit run you.

I grew up in absolute poverty, lived in homeless shelters and my mom was a prostitute... dad obviously not in the picture. I had absolutely no love or affection from anyone until I got my dog at 24 years old. I thew myself from a car. I have scars all over my body. I still struggle. But I choose not to let the struggle be all that I am. I choose not to let the bad be all that I see. I focus on the good... my dog. She’s amazing and she’s all that I had I lived for (I have a husband and child on the way and so she’s obviously not all I live for any more). I focus on the things I’m passionate about. Just a small hobby of hiking and reading but doing those things being me so much joy because I ALLOW them too. I started treating MYSELF better. You’re inner dialogue can either paralyze you or heal you. I learned to let stuff go. I accepted that bad has happened and that bad will happen and that a lot of the time, it will be out of my control. I just don’t focus on it and let it consume me anymore.