Perhaps you’re right; to be honest I barely know what he’s up to most of the time, if he’s really quit or relapsed or on something else it’s so hard to tell. That’s the most worrying part and I know that’s part and parcel of dating someone with an addiction or former addiction but it is getting to a drastic point now with how it’s affecting me. Some days I just feel numb to everything regarding it. Winter doesn’t help yeah but I’ve felt this way for a while. Everything just seems so dark. I agree with you relationships are meant to bring happiness not heartache most of the time. I’ll really think on it this time. Thank you for your help and advice, i appreciate it