Someone once told me I'd feel better about it if I simply got to experience being with a cis guy (not necessarily all the way). In my early transition days, I didn't care about it at all. The desire to obtain one came later, probably after a year or 2 on T. The desire comes and goes. I don't want it for the sake of having one, but to get to experience life's joys with one. It would definitely make life a lot more easier and happier, possibly. Nevertheless, having grown a small one satisfied me in "having one". Do I have a penis? Yup. Small but functional.

So, I followed others' advice and played around with guys. Jerking off with them turned into my hobby, lol. By now, I've seen so many. The initial feelings of envy turned into sexual turn on. I learned to let go of things I just have no control over, and focus my energy on things that I can change. I can make my dick bigger using DHT cream eventually.

If you have any sort of inclination towards men, try it if you haven't already. Find a guy you're comfortable with and just take time to explore his body. If you're into that, of course. I think it works wonders because it gets your mind off your own body.