Hey Amber! I hope you're all right? And how's William? Just try to not cry in front of your baby, okay dear? They indeed are a toddler but I reckon, he can 'feel' or 'understand' that his Mum is sad. Just a guess, though off a random thought that when we try to make a baby laugh/ smile at least, we as well, smile along.

And not with a plain face. Just like how an emotion-less robot would try. And well, will fail indeed.

Now first Amber, what I'm and others were concerned about your sending him a mail is simply that since Andrew's been in and out of jail for quite too many times, everyone would be better off stay away from tangling up in a net, lest if anybody be tracked down along, by the cops about whom from Andrew has had mails (and phones) FOR some serious case. If ever, he commit any.

So Amber, repeating his history, I'd suggest as a brother that please, it'd rather be a good idea that you'd better stay; sorry dear but, away* from him. Than any of us send a one, two, three or hundreds of messages explaining that what you're going through, and what is 'simply just out of your control'.

And because; even being a father of late, he simply walked out. To never return. Or at the very least, leave a message about, 'Why'. No words, no note, no mentioning of leaving you ever. Man, how could you be(having) like that?

So Amber, I'm rather concerned * - lest William have him around somehow, dear dad named 'Andrew'. He'd face him day and night, and learn if not all but surely a one or two dirty tricks all while growing up.

So you're best off, stay away from him. I read how you feel about him but, but it's I reckon, are only the effects of "depression". That you're NOT at all ready to get away from this relationship.

And than trying for a better future instead, you're like, you're better off staying with him only. This. These are the little effects of Depression we often/ always overlook. That, we'd better stay indoors than get outside, get a fresh air, meet people WHICH is what only, in turn help cure this bloody depression. Along with, the medicines (for though, I have no proof that we're eating it only to make us all the more drowsy).

So please. For heave's sake. I know it could be tad hard, but try to get out of your shell.

Or AT LEAST, think for William. His future, if not yours? Recall, and recall again the facts that it's not once but quite many times that Andrew's been in and out of jail. So, if your well. "so dear" Andrew does come back, what impact it'd have on William's mind. And worse, all while growing up? For I'm dead sure that Andrew wouldn't, or at least, couldn't become a saint within a day or two. We all are human. And at this age of his, this assumption seems like a solid one.

So, think from your kid's perspective, for his future, all right? And what'd in turn, help YOU cure yourself in the end as well. If not completely, a lot enough.

And you didn't just look that sort of lady that you'll leave William all alone in this mess. I reckon, it was you only on the Twitter picture, isn't it? Sorry for digging you up there. But, it's just that I wanted to 'read' your face. And tee-hee, see William as well! He's damn cute! Give him a biiig hug from me

And, since you're a nice looking woman as well, and so does William, you could, if not immediately but soon enough, be able to find someone who'll take you, accept you as you are, with your depression problems.

So please, try keep updating. I'm concerned about li'l William. Like you only. And for you. Okay?