My opinion on the subject, I really want you guys to have a positive role model, you guys really deserve it and need it and I wish you all the best in getting the role models you deserve.

My experiences with the visibility trans women had gotten: I knew from an earlyish age trans women existed but back then in the 90's/early 00's the media portrayal of trans women was at best a joke and at its worst a sexual deviant/predator and someone who would/deserved to be murdered. This made me worse and try and hide my feelings even deeper, I thought of myself as a sick and twisted person for the feelings I had because that's just how those who transitioned from mtf at the time were viewed by society and the media. It caused a lot of damage to me, to me the only way I could ever be me was in death, transitioning wasn't an option because of how I viewed it and viewed myself, this caused my to become very suicidal and caused the mental issues I was dealing with to worsen and caused me stays both in hospital and mental hospitals. The medication I was put on had an adverse effect on me causing me to be in hospital in an isolation ward for a few weeks since it's adverse effects was on my red and white blood cells, I still suffer from anaemia even after being off that medication for many years. I would do anything for the invisibility trans guys had, I would have rather have not know transitioning was a thing than known and seen myself as a monster.

I may delete this, I haven't decided yet, it's a very emotional issue for me and I don't want to come off like I'm saying trans guy issues matter because they do I just wanted to share my experiences as a trans women.