Thank you for your reply. You are very kind. I am obviously confused with most of this and what it means, specifically tools/tricks/weapons/methods to use in the fight. I am a stubborn son of bitch, even if I do not see hope in it going away I am determined to do whatever I can to not let it control my life.

its just that the reason is physical (brain chemistry).

I was reading some about that after reading your post. I am guessing this is something that can develop? Being 25 and having the majority of the symptoms sense around 23, I am just wondering if that is normal. Or is brain chemistry the same your whole life?

Same as it always did. [referring to dating]

Yeah. That is pretty much one of the classic symptom definitions: .....sometimes its just a matter of getting myself started. [Referring to not being able to focus on "fun"]

The reason these get under my skin so much is they are very closely related. And dating is totally not the same for me as it used to be. I was a pretty fun person, did well in the dating scene. Ever sense depression has come into my life it is super hard to fake happy on dates and fake having fun on them as well. It sends the wrong message. It say I do not like them or I am not interested. When the fact is that the date was probably the highlight of my week (true in most of the cases at least). I also do not feel like saying "Hey, I am having a good time and I like you. I just have a hard time with "fun" because depression sucks a fat dick." I feel like saying that is worse than being a boring statue of a date. Don't bring them down with ya, ya know? Idk, there was a rant for ya. I just do not know how to fix that and I have a date this weekend and am getting anxious that I will get a consumed. Maybe I just run 10 miles before I go met up with her.