You should give up and drop it.

Trust me. It just gets worse. Even if sex comes back into the relationship, it's likely to become a mechanical sacrifice she makes to sustain the relationship rather than out of her innate desire for you.

Attraction is totally a loaded game. The only way to win is to have already won, and you have already lost.

Don't marry her, and certainly don't have a child with her.

If I could go back to the me who was where you are right now, I'd tell me to save the hassle and the tears. Save the crazymaking that is a partner's sexual aversion ... save the humiliation that is a partner's disgust ... save your self esteem while you still have it. Save your sexual confidence while there is still a stitch or two left.

Just thinking about the hopeless catch-22 between desperation and attraction makes my stomach turn ... the times she's called me "needy" or "perverted" or a "sex addict" ... the times when the need for intimate affection welled up in uncontrollable fits of restlessness and frustration that were met with nothing but utter disdain.

And rightfully so, right? HOW CHILDISH!

At this point, after so much rejection, denial, avoidance, and neglect, I am so devoid of confidence and seduction, that I don't think I could woo any woman.

Do yourself a favor and cut out of this before your entire sexual being is hollowed out over years and years of neglect and rejection. It's hell to feel undesired and unloved by the woman who claims to love you the most.

Don't walk through that hell.

You are still young, and the relationship still budding. It's far too early to walk any further into this if you aren't satisfied.

Being a martyr for love is foolish and will impact you and the relationship more than you could imagine.

Just. Trust. Me.