That’s my biggest worry is that he’s not going to ever be able to trust me again and that’s going to ultimately ruin our relationship if we do try to get back together. I wouldn’t say that I was moving on because I was having a really hard time. I even went to Japan for a 5 weeks (still here) to get away from everything and focus on myself which was helping but now I feel like I’m a million steps back. And I still love him and want to be with him which is why it’s been hard for me to move on but I don’t know to do to make him trust me and I feel like whatever I do won’t make a difference. Ahhhhhh fuck, well thank you. It’s good to see that other people have been in this situation