That's such an opptimistic way of looking for meaning in your life. Saying that people have different tastes..when in reality there is really no one. "You just don't know whose you are yet"....what is the point of waiting and hoping when its difficult in the start, why hope for something that might not even come. Why try and "hang on" for 30+ years when you could just not at all and save yourself from all the trauma and abuse that would build up, because in the end even IF you do find someone, would it be worth it? Your mind and body are so lost and gone that at this point you may not be literally dead but you sure as hell are mentally. And that's IF you can "eliminate the abuse".....what if I can't?