She would tell always tell me she loved me and allow me to talk to her about anything without any judgment. She would sometimes make really nice loving meals for me. She would sometimes get me little gifts (from my money but saw it as the thought that counted). She would always make me feel special when we were together (maybe just not used to getting any attention before). She done things around the house that made it feel like a home but just because of how much I was struggling with working alone and feeling stuck I felt this still wasn’t enough. She says that it was impossible to live with someone that is impossible to love. I just wanted to love her and make her feel loved. I don’t really know I just thought that’s what love felt like. I had a breakdown but all she saw it as was I didn’t love her or want to be with her when I was only asking for help. For my first relationship I definitely should have taken things slower. I was convinced that she was it n that’s it. We have had magical times together. When it comes to reality and making a future it felt like I was working and trying to hold everything together and she felt she was doing all the important stuff and would say it wouldn’t make a difference if we both work or she wishes she could be in my position and say all she does is work and the rest is left to me. I didn’t understand that as I just wanted to make a good future with her and I know money isn’t everything but it becomes a problem when you are struggling for rent or food and having to ask my mum for help. I felt so much pressure but I was convincing myself the love here is more important than anything else. She said that any of this that we built was from her holding our relationship together. Sorry if this is a tad long and I’m rambling. Thank you for your reply.