Yup. I got at this point after only two actual relationships (and a 12 year obsession).

Sometimes I just miss sex, it comes in waves I guess, a few days thinking I should just try to get laid ( not enough to go trough the entire process though. I also feel lonely at times but honestly, I am extremely adapted to my loneliness and if in a good mood I can pretty much enjoy myself doing whatever.

I feel it ends up being only worse, because even if I act avoidant, I still haven`t really gave up on having a proper relationship. But my first relationship after a 5 years without having any kind of romantic relationship will be a recipe for a disaster.