I thought I was doing better. I've moved home (for visa reasons). Felt more comforted by being back. Successfully transitioned my relationship into a long distance relationship. Even started to feel slightly hopeful about my job search.
Today, my boyfriend and I got into a huge fight. For the first time in our entire year and a half, I'm terrified of losing him. I have an interview to prepare for but I have no energy to do so. I'm so scared of losing him. I should have tried harder to keep myself from blowing up at him again. I can't sleep and I have nothing to do but distract myself while I wait for him to be ready to talk to me.