I’m not in your situation and cannot understand how you’re feeling so I don’t want to speculate that you are for sure gay, straight, whatever. Maybe you’re just figuring yourself out and that’s ok. I’m not here to judge or tell you who you are.

Getting “rid of it” is what I understand to be some form of self-repression. Maybe you live in a country where homosexuality is illegal and you need to do this to save your life. Again, no judgement here. But if that is not the case, I would suggest not being so hasty in repressing yourself. I’ve lived to see multiple hetero couples with kids divorce because one of the married partners was not living their truth as a gay person. Don’t put yourself in that position if you’re able to. It’s not fair to the partner. At a minimum, you should be transparent with whoever you date about who you were attracted to in the long run, but I getting ahead of myself here.

Don’t deny yourself the certainty of knowing the true sexual orientation you were born with, whatever that may be. As Abbi Jacobson once said, “you never know if you never try and if you never try you never know.” And if you still have these tendencies, know that you have absolutely nothing to be ashamed of.