Back in my school days I used to 'bully' few of my classmates with my then friends. Why I put bully in quotes is because these classmates I picked on were the trouble maker and were the most despised guys in our class, maybe right below us. The thing we did were nothing like what is portrayed in movies or shows, it was all verbal. Shutting down their mischiefs, insulting and picking them in front of the whole class to name a few. I am not justifying my deeds but the whole class liked us for doing this shit and so we continued doing this until our group kinda fell apart when few of my friends changed school.

Our group strength slashed to less than a half and remaining of us started growing apart. I started getting more and more time to myself and started realising what I did, no matter the reasons or circumstances was wrong. The more time I started to spend without them, the more I realised how I am not like the person that I acted around them. So I started cutting them off slowly.

Year and two went by doing this and then hit a sudden realisation that because of my acts in the past, the mean person personality that surrounded me is becoming a big hurdle in making new friends, people that I actually want to be part of my life. I then knew I had to do something about it. I then tried to be more friendlier and open person but I had my struggles. I am still trying to become friendlier and more socialable. A lot of times new people will remark how nice I am and it tbh it's a nice feeling hearing those words. I can't say I have redeemed myself but when I compare myself and behaviour of people towards me now from back then, the change is almost unbelievable. It's almost like I am a new person.