I don't want to answer this in this thread, I don't want to submit it as a topic in any other subreddit, and I don't even want to post about it in Reddit as I don't want to categorize it as gossip or anything else because they might see it:

But trying to end a friendship.

And yes, he might see this, and yes, I don't consider myself forever excluded from his life if ever he needs me in a hard life situation(and hopefully they know the offer is there).

I just felt like we kept clashing, not getting along, being at odds over subjects that we both will not budge on, being incredibly incompatible because we are both so stubborn and so different, so what I'm supposed to do? Be okay with things when I'm not okay and stay, only to have something bigger erupt down the line? Or let all that shit go, all that toxicity, and go our own separate ways?

The silver lining?

I love him. He knows. I'll never not love him. But I think going our own separate ways will allow him to find someone/people who won't cause all this turmoil. There'll be more peace if I'm not around, and I know it. And I mean that lovingly. There are people out there that will be more like-minded, easier, and compatible. And I want that for him, and I would incredibly happy if and when he found that.

I still love you, M, and yes, I miss you and am thinking about you. I'm wanting the best for you.

None of this has been easy at all, and I don't need any Reddit judgments, I'm judging myself. But I know, I fucking know I'm right about this.