Not kind of him but you chose to do all this fake shit that obviously considerably changes how you look so I guess maybe you need to come to terms with accepting how you look naturally instead of being fake and then getting hurt when the guy was attracted to the fake you and not the real you. Find someone who is attracted to the real you... or hope you grow on this guy. Never understood why women do this to themselves. Like, did you really think he was never going to see you without all you fake shit? What to did you expect to happen? You shore up looking completely divergent and he's just going to shrug and act like nothing's different? If so you are just out of touch with reality-through you r fake presentation of yourself and your unrealistic expectations of how humans work.