i've had people tell me to try them, but i've also had people who really know my situation well think that i shouldn't try them.... they scare me.. the study results scare me. and maybe I just don't want to live anyway. I am only 33, but I have lived a full life.. but now it's lonely and empty, only going to get worse.....I debate myself as to whether i am depressed. By clinical definitions, I am, but I really question whether I am or not. I would articulate but it would take me forever to type out the argument for why I might be something other than depressed, which in itself seems sad to do. I can talk and talk and talk, but when I type, I type like I talk and I could go on forever and it kills my hands to keep doing it. ... but you,,,, I am happy for you... you have college to look forward to, which may seem intimidating, but I assure you, it is great.... my advice,,, focus on a job where your degree is specified. make sure you think you can find something you will like, and make sure you get paid well enough to never struggle financially... MOST importantly, find someone to love and spend the rest of your life with. someone you can love unconditionally, have a family with. marry them if you want to spend the rest of your life with the person. be good to them always and kind. be sweet and kind to your parents, and friends. try to respect all people you encounter. help people in your life if you can. be safe, dont put yourself in dangerous situations. eventually it might bite you. and really, if you can, please avoid drugs and even alcohol if you can. live life and love life and enjoy life if you can.... sorry not trying to be preachy. but i dont have anyone to talk to. but id share similar words with all of the world. Peace and love, thanks for writing me. I hope that I do give medicine a shot, even though I sure dont want to..... Sean