Can definitely relate and felt like a totally accessory; My parents were really wealthy when I was younger.

• always money for $$$$ wine or designer clothes (like $3000 ski jackets) but back to school shopping always stressed me out because my Nmom would always complain about the cost/requirement of glue sticks, pencils, etc.
• always money for expensive Xmas gifts I didn’t want or understand (diamond Jewlrey anyone at 7 years old)
• only my parents went out to movies or dinner. If we went to the movies only my mom was able to get popcorn because “concessions were too expensive”
• money for private tennis lesions but group soccer too expensive and a hassle
• money for lux vacations but not for lunch at the resorts, etc as my parents ordered food, wine, and beers

I could go on and on. I was so confused growing up because i didn’t understand why dollar amounts didn’t matter - it was totally situationally and about control. I didn’t know that, couldn’t recognize it, and it has led to me needing to feel such strong agency in my life.

Often I don’t know what I like or what I’ve been conditioned to like.