I was bullied so bad my whole life. Before I was overweight and before. Even when I lost 100 pounds it was never good enough for me or anyone else. I was always the target. Finally I realized I was better off alone with no friends than to be around assholes. There is a robin williams quote that says "its better to be alone than surrounded by shitty people" I live by that now. I can honestly say my life has gotten so much since i cut out all of the fake friends and assholes who made me feel worse about myself. I would rather be by myself and sad then to be in a group of people and feel alone and sad. I started watching shows like friends and the golden girls. I know that sounds funny and probably a little weird as Im in my early twenties but finding something like that or a book helps. It may not be the best way to forget being lonely but it sure does help when you find something that makes you laugh your ass off. Those shows have gotten me through some tough times. Also a pet really helps!! I got a cat 4 years ago and he is the best thing ever. Plus he can't tell me off lol. I am so sorry this is happening to you and I hope you can find some comfort in knowing you're not alone. My therapist said this to me in our first session "you cut those people out of your life and you're still letting them win by thinking so bad about yourself for how they treated you". So now everytime I think something bad about myself because of how someone else treated me I remember not to let them win. They're losers. And there are still some good people out there I PROMISE!