I’m currently in an abusive relationship. My trauma stems from about 3-4 years ago and if my wife starts to raise her voice or yell it’s like my brain hijacks my entire system and I become lost in the story or my feelings. That’s what a flashback is for me. That animal part of my brain that is always asking and checking “are you safe?” Completely takes over and I’m back in the moment when my trauma happened. I want to get out of the marriage but I have three young boys and I’ve never been afraid of someone the way I am with my wife. The things she is capable of and the lengths she goes to are beyond belief. Most days I feel like I have nothing left to lose and then I remember how dangerous she is and what the consequences will be.