Thank you for sharing, I am very sorry to hear that you or anyone has to endure this pain. Does anything help you? Benzos and cannabis only got me so far before I resorted to opiates in a panic last spring. It's since spiraled out of control, and I am looking into needles for a last resort in case I attempt in the near future. I'm terrified because I've seen firsthand how it can ruin one's life and family, but between suicide and more drugs, drugs seems to be the lesser of two evils even though the result will probably be the same. If you were able to avoid drugs, I beg that you never resort to them. Thinking they'd help you was an illusion that I falsely resorted to. I can imagine how bad you must be feeling, and I hope you don't go down the past I've taken and throw your life away. If you have ANYONE in your life that you can talk to, please do. I hope that you're able to find some support and relief, please stay strong and avoid my mistakes if you still can. There's still hope if you don't fall down this path, I promise. Even if you did too, please consider seeking out somebody in your life to share what you've been thinking and feeling. I bottled mine up to the point of insanity, and if you don't have anybody in your real-life or just need a listening ear... please free to PM me if you ever need someone to listen or vent to.

That goes for anybody reading this. I don't know how much longer I'll be around in this world, but I'm willing to help anyone looking for support or a listening ear. I can't insist enough that nobody follows down my path. And to those fortunate enough to have people in their who care and are willing to help, please seek them out before it's too late!