I'm kind of hurt that you called it a stupid excuse.

I have some mental health issues (which i'm working on) and on the spectrum (mild form of Asperger).

i'm not using the aspbergers or the mental disorders as an excuse, but they do make picking up on social cues pretty hard.

also didn't talk until I was three, and even then I didn't talk much. single child, grew up isolated for the most part.

I am fully aware that i can make an effort to not have a monotone voice, but it's really hard. my default is monotone.

it was to the point that in highschool , people thought i was a smoke weed errday type of person, and I didn't do anything like that till college. Grew up kinda sheltered, and if people thought I was stoned without ever consuming of the herb....shrug. I'm a really mellow person.

mom said that she could sit me down anywhere and not worry about me, because i'd still be there after checking up on me two hours later.

shrug

i'm trying tho. it's kind of endeared me to people, and then they get frustrated because i don't emote anything.

i also don't realize that i'm supposed to mention that i'm having a good time and enjoying myself to people.

just don't realize these things are socially expected ....

i only have about five friends, and very good friends. yet i can strike a conversation with strangers on the street. so i never feel too lonely.

uh...see what i mean bout having little social cues/boundaries?

i talk too much, and too personal.

another reason why i am a bad cashier, as much as I like the job.

i know...i haven't learned how to behave, am trying. it's hard. see how people are too and i don't have much desire to engage, either.