Hey you two peoples! Thanks for the replies. Hoping I can still get more of your thoughts. Also, when I say 5-10 seconds, I truly can't remember. So just saying that.
So I decided to consider it a decent but not official relapse, as it is a personal goal and I told myself that this time "will be different". I will however, just simply put on my calender on what happened and my reason for it. No idea if I'll reset the day counter on it but not sure if I should consider it a big deal. After exercising and eating dinner, I feel a lot better, so it could be said that I just had a moment of weakness to the idea of it, since I was tired and wanted to feel awesome.
As for the porn, I don't really consider the pornography/hentai thing a big deal because a) just never knew this pornstar existed so I wanted to see the videos she put on and b) I go on a hentai forum and I am always intrigued in what new pics its dwellers put on. Other than that, I wasn't really impressed or super turned on when I was searching it. Even then, it is hard to figure out what kind of porn/hentai is for you. Seeing a hot girl in real life and getting turned on by just looking at her for me would be considered worse than porn/hentai for this goal... Though that is how my head works now. For me, it takes some disgusting shit for me to get turned on nowadays. Besides, I read a LGBT comic that had constant nudity + porn scenes and also had a lesbian friend that does LGBT art (dick-girl sorta stuff) so the P in PMO is very easy to deal with.
The masturbation/orgasm has more or less been my focal point in this goal. Don't mean to say too much personal stuff but I was introduced to masturbation very early in my life, accidentally unfortunately, can't remember when exactly but around age 6 -7. Learning about orgasm/porn/masturbation all at once was when I was grade 3, so I was around age 8; basically introduced to PMO really early. I can jerk off without porn as I was a huge chronic masturbator (once a day usually).
Those 5-10 seconds I am just going to consider a simple few seconds of weakness. I was mostly interested in the orgasm part, and I am bit ashamed that I got a bit "wet", so this is where I am at in this overall problem. Again, I ain't gonna give up, didn't actually have the orgasm part happen (which would usually have porn + lots of fapping included) so yeah...
Would love to hear your thoughts. Again, just sharing.