Yeah I know what you feel, sort of the same boat I’m in relationship with the mother of son still only cause I can’t stand the fact not waking next to my son or falling asleep next to him. She constantly puts me down and talks shit even when I try fixing things or staying quiet I’ll never be good enough for her, but it’s okay as long as I provide for my son. Just really sucks I can’t make her see I want this to worm for us and our son but she’s too stubborn. My son is what keeps me going and honestly keeps me happy, I really hope you find yourself out of this! Just please don’t give up on your kids no matter what, they love you and you need to be there for them. I feel like shit arguing with my girl but I always put a smile on for my son, he doesn’t need to me crying or sad; i want him to be happy and know everything is okay even when it’s not.