You are beating yourself for doing what you had to do in order to deal with the trauma and instability in your life. I can’t say that you should or shouldn’t have done this, but I can see that you did not have malicious intentions. You weren’t trying to hurt anyone, you were just trying to get through life.

I don’t think it is necessary to tell your family at this time. Maybe in the future if you want to, but not now. What would telling them help? Nothing. It would only cause you more problems and have them upset with you. You don’t need that. What you need is support. A therapist. Someone you can turn to.

Please stop beating yourself up. We do what we have to do in order to survive. Give yourself a break.