To deal with your loneliness, I recommend you focus on the HOPE that you will meet someone and work to be the same kind of person you hope to meet. It seems you have lost hope and you must find it again. Remember that Good Luck = Opportunity + Preparedness.

The part of your post that stood out to me most was “what’s the point of this idiotic life?” If, for you, the point is to connect with a romantic partner then you should focus on online dating like it is your job until you meet someone. A JOB with a 5-day schedule, research, quality pictures and quotas to fill. Honestly, you sound awesome and interesting! That combined with average looks and no kids makes you a total catch online!