I do this shit too. I hate myself deeply so I couldn’t imagine anybody wanting to hang out with me or be around me unless they were getting something out of it. I don’t even let anyone close anymore. I’ve ghosted so many people that I actually wanted to get to know that I figure its best if I just avoid people for awhile. I wish I could tell all of them I’m sorry for that. There’s probably a few who cared and it hurt them. The ones who were reaching out to me via email because I deleted my facebook and blocked non essential numbers. Just can’t do it yet. Can’t open up. No point until I can stop self destructing and stop hating myself so damn much.