Thank you. I do think I was being overboard and crossed into creepy territory now and then, at the very least, but I also know he would (and still had trouble with, last we spoke) send signals that said one thing when he meant another.

As a great example, after we broke up, there was a woman he was seeing. I only knew because I lived in the apartment beneath him at the time and the building was so old that I could hear him talking to other women and sleeping with them. One morning I heard a shower running; I texted him and asked if he was OK, since it was during his work hours, and he grudgingly explained he let a "friend" stay the night who may still be there. A few days later, he texted me to complain that this "friend" was getting the wrong idea and wanted to date him. All I could say was, "You left her alone in your apartment when you weren't home. What signal did you think that sent?"

I wasn't good for him and he wasn't good for me. I try to admit to my mistakes when I make them, but I no longer blame myself fully as I used to.